PADZ
Closure (Second letter to K.)
I had sworn to myself I would never do that. I had thought about it for so long.
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Jul 143 min read
The grim counting is on
I've been on and off social media for several years now. First, because I'm not social whatsoever, even through a computer.
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Jan 112 min read
Anonymous Dust (Feed Me Not)
I can't let you feed me. I don't trust you.
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Oct 23, 20232 min read
Première lettre à K.
Je ne t'ai pas vu depuis 30 ans. Mais il y a quelques années, tu es apparu dans mes rêves. Une fois, quelques fois, souvent...
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Oct 15, 20233 min read
Flags (the lost hope of lowering gender contrasts)
Will asexual, non-binary people ever get their place in the universal sun? Not so sure...
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Oct 7, 20233 min read
Je ne parle plus français, but...
I've always wondered why I still write things in French. I've never felt like I was French. From as far as I can remember, I've never felt
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Oct 1, 20232 min read
Letter to my tea mate
It's teatime in the garden during a summer afternoon... with you.
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Sep 24, 20231 min read
L'habitude
On s'habitue à tout, même à la maltraitance. A l'indifférence à sa propre souffrance.
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Sep 9, 20232 min read
Wish for average dumb
You do not want to be intelligent. Not in a world where approximately 95% of people are quite stupid.
PADZ
Jul 20, 20234 min read
Lettre à un sale type
Je ne crois pas avoir rencontré une personne plus abjecte que toi. Depuis que je te connais, tu te gargarises du mot "famille".
PADZ
Jul 14, 20234 min read
Letter to a woman I knew
I have so many things I wish I would have said to you. But one can live with someone else for a third of a century without getting to know
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Apr 18, 20233 min read
Food and I (part 5/5): the way out
I think this will be the last post regarding my eating disorders.
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Apr 9, 20235 min read
Food and I (part 4/5): one year in hell
1993-1994 was just a trip to hell. It takes less long to go there than to come back... In autumn 1993, I was extremely underweight (BMI...
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Apr 5, 20234 min read
Food and I (part 3/5): the tipping point
Now that I started with my own story, I've been giving some thought about the darker parts I have to write. So far, not so good, but at...
PADZ
Mar 27, 20233 min read
Food & I (part 2/5): the restaurant years
As I come from a family in which no one talks to no one, I've sadly turned out just like them. I've never asked questions about this or...
PADZ
Mar 24, 20233 min read
Food & I (part 1/5): the very first years
From as far as I can remember, I was a very difficult child. I would refuse to say hello to people. I would run away from kindergarten. I...
PADZ
Mar 20, 20233 min read
The archive room
Part of my brain is an archive room. There are plenty of shelves. On those shelves, plenty of boxes. Different colors and sizes. All...
PADZ
Mar 15, 20232 min read
Sol Invictus (An introduction)
I have to start this blog with the only thing that keeps me going. I've always struggled with dark thoughts. I'm beyond pessimistic. I've...
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